Strength of a woman

Yesterday was international women’s day, a day to celebrate the female species. I woke up feeling amazing. Like I can conquer the world. I felt so empowered and uplifted by all the positive endorsement of women and all the greatness they contribute to our society.

I felt motivated and powerful because it is the day that I too am celebrated for I am a woman. The positivity around the day swept me away and I found myself being carried away by the stream of positivity that I for the first time had the confidence and courage to post a picture of myself on my social media. I have always intended to keep my face off my social media and therefore keeping my blog anonymous to many of my readers. I never intended to show my face. From the moment I posted my picture on Instagram I had a pit in my stomach. Anxiety hit me for the first time in weeks like a ton of bricks. My palms were clammy, my arms were numb and my legs felt like they weighed a ton. I could barely move. The world now new what I look like and the confidence I felt drifted away and disappeared like a thief in the night. It was as if it never existed. As if I never felt any confidence at all. My stomach was in knots. I could barely eat and I felt so drained emotionally, but I had to keep it together for the sake of my children. I completed the school run and did what I had to, but deep down inside my soul I felt like I was slowly dying. After months of positive thinking and so much progress I found myself slipping into the darkness again. This was so unexpected and I was not prepared for it, but suddenly out of the blue I received a lovely message from a complete stranger on Instagram followed by another and another.

I was completely blown away. These ladies messaged me, a complete stranger sending me words of encouragement that felt so sincere. As I sat on my floor trying to slow my breathing and stop the panic attack I could feel is about to hit me, I opened and read the messages and I felt the air coming back into my lungs. I sat staring at the messages and comments reading it over and over until it made sense. It wasn’t cryptic at all, but in that moment of pure panic it didn’t make sense so I read it over and over until I understood every word.

This shows the power of a woman. We all have the ability to uplift and encourage the world. These ladies messaged me and with one in particular I felt so comfortable to share a tiny snippet of my journey which is something I have never done before, at least not with someone I don’t not know personally. Life has a funny way of teaching us valuable lessons, we just need to be willing to accept it. I have kept my picture on Instagram and woke up this morning with a renewed sense of confidence and love for my fellow species. They have showed me what a big and positive effect kind words can have on someone. Their kindness again proved to me that I am not alone and that I should reach out when I am need of help. So many times I don’t because I am too afraid to do so. The fear becomes so overwhelming that you feel discombobulated.

Today I arose with a new sense of confidence and A spring in my step. For the first time in months I spoke to a complete stranger bonding with him over our love for dogs and our children. He too has two boys. It felt amazing. Usually when my anxiety hits I am stuck in that rut for days, however this time was different. I suppose a positive to take from it is that I was able to bounce back after just one day and that is something that hasn’t happened in a long time. I was able to move forward and leave yesterday where it belongs, in the past. My focus today changed, I smiled again and I found myself able to enjoy the beauty of my day. My silver lining is in the fact that I now know I am stronger than my anxiety and I can beat this monster.

Categories Mental Health

12 thoughts on “Strength of a woman

  1. I was thinking about postings a picture of myself today – not sure I’ll ever manage it! Well done!! Loved the read xx

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    1. Thank you lovely! I’m trying to follow your blog back on WordPress but can’t do will do with my email! I had a wee nosey around your blog earlier and I love it! It took so much out of my to be honest with you. I came close to removing my picture so many times, but if I do I let my anxiety win. I’m sure you will get there hun. It takes time, but I think I was a bit too hasty hence why the anxiety.

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      1. Sometime WordPress is strange with me too! It told me it hadn’t been able to post my comment but here it is! Probably twice?! You’re very brave and I think it’s good to put yourself out there, life is way too short to worry what people think. Look forward to seeing you around on here! Xx

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      2. Following you via email lovely!!! Thank you so much for your kind words and for reading!! Xx

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      3. Ah well done! My inbox is too full for that at the moment 😂😂😂 just waved hello on insta’ too! Hope you’re not feeling too harassed 😂😂x

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      4. 🤣🤣🤣 nah definitely not hun! This is the most adult conversation I’ve had that’s not been interrupted by my toddler or dogs! 🤣🤣 it’s great to communicate with other mummy bloggers!! Xx

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      5. Ha! Same here and my husband is home! 😂😂😜 it’s just brilliant isn’t it, find it harder to meet people on WordPress so lovely to meet you! Xx

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      6. I know right?! Totally so happy to meet you too! 😂 even when my hubby is home I just let him be because he works from home and I still feel like I’m home alone even with him here 🤣🤣🤣 so lovely to chat to you!!!! Xx

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      7. Mine using up annual leave and unwell – Sod’s law! Yes mine works from home sometimes too, useful for the odd “can you just” buy largely no different from being home alone! Xx

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  2. Thank you lovely! I’ve learnt that the hard way. Spent way too much of my time worrying about what others think. I’m so much happier now! I’m following you via email! Look forward to reading more of your posts!!


  3. One of the lessons I had to learn is to surround myself with positive people. Yes, it does mean that you have to cut off negative influences and that’s hard. And I must admit I haven’t cut the ties with everyone who’s negative (it’s really hard with family), but I’ve limited the contact. And that makes such a difference. The more positiveness you have around you, the more empowered you’ll feel. I mean, let’s be honest, all of us have doubts and hold ourselves back sometimes, we don’t need more of that in our lives. I felt the support of positive women in so many ways, and I could not do without it!

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    1. Cutting ties with negative people has really made the biggest difference in my mood and mental wellbeing. You’re right it is hard when it comes to family. I have had to distance myself from my family too because at times the emotional trauma was just too much. Having the distance really helps! Thank you for reading and commenting lovely!! Xx


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